Thursday, December 5, 2024

Jump off line: You can let yourself be known here

“You know what we are talking is real?”, he said. I nodded. “Others want me to talk like them, to get to their level. It’s so rare to get to speak like this.” “Yeah, which is why I don’t think I’ve ever really spoken.” He chuckles. “You’re funny.”

I have a constant thread in my head which is playing Tetris to fit in the various things I wanna do today versus tomorrow, planning out how long I want to stay here before going to Maui, should I move to Waikiki or stay here? Do I need the consistency of familiarity or am I ready to risk disruption.. and so on. I try to be present every moment but it seems impossible. One has to plan. Right? Yes, but you have the choice to sequence it or schedule it or hit snooze to that thread. And, more importantly, trust yourself to follow through. Like you would if you promised a child that you’d get back to them. You would, wouldn’t you? Take the leap of faith and trust yourself to follow through like you always have to others even if not always to yourself. Loosen control a bit and put an end to the recurring thoughts like the many alarms you snooze every morning. You only need one alarm to begin with and if you live right you won’t even need that. Things come to you at the right time. All I am saying is that there is a pink rubber stamp I bought in a little Japanese shop in East Village, NYC that says “Trust the timing of your life.”